yo..from now on ill b updating my blog at
www.beechybelle.com
still updates will b really..lagging as im still very busy.tll end of july.it is still very undone..quite messy lol.well thts onli till end of july!
btw..more personal entry will b posted in frenster instead of beechy coz erm..fs makes me felt closer to myself i guess =)
cheers! muacks c u there!
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it is nothing but big deal.atleast for me
its monster tht could destroy whatever joy im having behind me
as it slowly crept into me..making me doubt am i right or am i wrong..it makes me shivers in agonies,silently replace the memories i had with anger and worries.Eventually allows me to ignore the bliss i had in present,wats rite in front of my naked eye.where i almost go despair..
instinct never fails to come in time..to wake me up from such nightmares.the saint word TRUST suddenly erupt from inside,holding my present memories,pleading myself to reconsider the wrong conclusion..demanding to erase the monster tht had crept inside me.. yes..thks to instinct..im no more a prey for …
FEAR
By names it represent who we are.I strongly believe so.
meiyee is wat my close frens address me
belinda is where my coll mates or studio ppl call me
belle is wat lazy ppl use upon me = ="
so..if i bump into coll mate or ppl introduce me as meiyee.i wouldnt mine,tht is my name.my root.
so how would u feel if someone u bump into,u call his/her’s real name ie meiyee and he/she obviously DISLIKE WAT U ADDRESS EM
does their real name makes them a low class human being? y do u need to DISLIKE yr name in the 1st place?do u still remember who u are? by using a name u give to yrself doesnt mean u r A different person..u r still however who u are.
When i found out there is such ppl..suddenly within myself felt sad whcih i dont even know why…
honestly i used to felt disgrace i came from kajang and i tell ppl im from kl.but tht was long ago..
now its name.the Given indentity once u were born and u felt disgraced?
do u still remembers who u are?
this is just an opinion..for me atleast..my name represents me,potraying who i am.if i were to hate my own name and preferbly become someone else..i bet..there will be no one wish to know the YOU u created..i believe..ppl prefer to know the real you rather thn the person u masked behind The fake identity u gave yrself..
LOVE YOURSELF love yr name..B4 expecting ppl to respect or love you..
tis like applying make up.yes nicely u apply it on u..its perfect,thts the cake ( the fake u )..but once the rain comes? make up off? ( the orginal u )
no matter how hard u cover..the consequences’ b the same as..u cant b someone else forever..there will b a time u will take off yr mask..and im sure..SOMEBODY will see it ( yr flaws tht u tried to hide upon.using yr fake personalities or ..A NAME )
Be yrself is wat u ought to do..if u don appreciate yrself who will do?
kawan..i wont say i know u much.i havent seen u in person
i knew u from hitz.fm chat room
since spidey 2.
you’ve
-burnt me countless soundtracks which i can easily download by myself
i rely on u quite alot coz u allow me to do so
u search for somthing im looking for
u tolerate my nonsence
ie wanting to upload songs to fs but lazy
u will ask me wat song i wan and u uploaded for me.alot of stuff effortlessly i get it from u
u sent me new year,x mas cards and even beday present last year
this year?
u gave me a very special present
midget : u ever think of wanting xxx ( i wouldnt tell wat it is untill its time ) ?
me : wan wan! wan!! name it beechybelle
midget : its not a good name = =""
me: don k! beechybelle nice ma!
midget : ok
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i receive an offline msg "happy birthday beechybelle" and i got the xxx
ofcoz its new and i need to do alot stuff with it.i ask my fren to help me he said eh dont u need to pay for yr xxx? i never tot of it untill my fren ask me
me : eh the xxx need money wan ma? and the username can create another one mou?
midget : noneed pay and noneed change wan la username
me : where can! takkan i use another name for my xxx wan ma! ( din realiase how ungrateful ive been.so sorry )
midget : ok u tell me yr desire username and i change u for u coz i already paid
me :PAID WAT?!!!! tell me le!!
midget : drop from sky meh…take it as yr birthday presz la.
i seriously dont know how to reply anymore..i dont even know wat to say
***i obviously tot i dropped from sky..forgive me for being so naive***
thanks..really i felt very kam tung!
hugsz….it meant alot to me..ill take k of xxx and i will love it to max
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THANK YOU
and im damn lucky to have a fren like u…
either the god love me too much or..u’ve been unlucky to owe me in the past’s life..
1st i wanna say thanks to everyone tht wished me h B day.really happy coz u guys remember and care ^^
thks to loveable someone who took a day off to celeb my burhday with me =)
love u to max and i really love yr effort..
( since u love to work so much i never expect u will take a day off )
yes simple things can make me really happy.esp from u
so wat do we do? spidey 3
OMG IT SUCKS…i was like watching typical love movie..can die rite there..i rather watchi the hunk beside me which is alot more exciting.can u believe how bored i am?cant wait for the movie to end.IM BLOODY SERIOUS
rating? - 0
but its still alrite..coz who is with me tht matters xD
after movie,went for shopping~spend alot again *sigh*
thn went home..cuddle up
"dear..happy birthday" aawwwww damn sweet i thought ^^
well parents date me to the ship.and ask my fren along.wokeiiii i tot..its so fishy but its alrite.they r not gonna slaughter him alive i think
dad and mom adn congratulations to them.their resume to go US was approved.bravo and there goes my 10 days freee witout them *dancing*
we had one dozen of natural oyster and escargots..but b4 i could take the pic..it was swapPED so..too bad no pics.anyway this is LAMB whatever name it is i call it lamb chop.its damn good!no funny smell.
bro and grandma’s seafood au gratin
my seafood platter
his seafood cocktail
my grandma! i drag her along 
all full and ah..my parents looked really tired coz they work hard for the interview to go US lol! memorising how to speak in english.its damn hillarious..
funny thing is..they don get to show off wat the memorize.coz there got translator.
= = "
bro me and sam.
yes we looked one kind.coz mom who took our picture makes u smile for damn long b4 she manage to click…i asked "mi..can u snap already" and 3 of us burst out laughin
seriously i looked damn awful in these pics! i don even dare to upload more in case i make ppl throw up.
im glad we all get along together well!
there goes my teeny! yes happy u ss! well..again i wish everyone around me merry happy jolly and pray for WORLD peace
happy birthday to me
i was invited by JANE to watch fashion show by sisley and united colours of benetton
yes i am at front row weee~
and ill blog more bout it in a day or two.lol! bz now ciaoz!!!!
happy beday to me in advance
wishing me pretty and vain forever !!!!!
told me tht i have u.
no i dont believe in you
told me tht u will not hurt me
no i dont believe in you
look at me in the eyes telling me you love me.
alas i believe in you
now in this cruel situation
u left me no where
but despair
you said i have you.now do i?
m tired and lonely i am hollow
where do i see you?
no where.
feelings had been deceiving me.
having u making me weak and useless
i wish i was alone all along
by thn i wouldnt feel ive screwed things up
by thn i need not to feel useless when i felt lonely
by thn i need not to feel embarrass im weak
BE COZ IM alone.i have the priviledge to be weak
now i have u do i? i cant be weak i cant b lonely i cant b hollow
i should be happy
but at this point.. i cant even think of any reason
for me to lie to myself
at this point i know…its not ok anymore.
at this point..looking back i wish id never chose this path.
still i cant turn back..walking towards more agonies.cry as i walk i may but i wouldnt turn back..
my onli hope…i hope m strong enough to meant
1st of all i dunno wat i wanna tok bout.so it’l b pretty random =] i came back from club and slept for 2 hours THEN friggin cant sleep anymore..so i woke up study and now broggin ( meaningless information i know but just let me be )
hey i doont know y i cant sleep may b coz i never drank for quite some time zzz
thai club
BLEH…ewewew..bored to max there..went there last nyt..
sorry i just cant stand there!
no wait..probably i cant stand any clubs anymore! y?
coz i fuckingly hate seeing ppl fag and i cant!
coz i fuck fuckingly cant drink much coz m not allowed to.crap in legal state to drink but was restrict..i dont know the diffs between me and a juvenile..yah yah cely sze earl who friggin bunch will saY "U MEMANG TAU KEI WARTTTTTT" = =
songs there? one single word SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnssssssssssssssss
long anot? imagine how i felt there..
bimbojo bimbobin suddenly i miss u guys.i wish i were with u guys T T
plz la.play more rnb songs ler.wtf all the clubs after 12 is trans..AFTER 12 IS WHERE ALL THE CHICS IN HIGH MOOD La!if u play rnb ALOT free show i can assure u.moreover..wats so nice bout seeing guys shuffle? no balls c..diu
(thai club don sue me xD )
ppls
gosh..i ought to say some fellas there r fun as they dance along with u..but some juz BLEH..plz don dance if u dont know even know wat it is..
cant kept up with tempo nvm..but when i see ppl "dance" like tht,i tot they were electrify or somthing.fine if u wanna do tht..but PLZ not in front of me..go ahead..say m mean..
and for those ppl who think its cool to fag while dancing ..THINK AGAIN
( i never encounter this at other clubs )
plz la wtf..dancing la hello fag for waT?! u poke tht fucking thing on me ok! BUrn la sial..well next time i saw someone who fag while dancing ill push the ciggy back into their mouth.beware.i will.i don care.its a provocation!
drinks
i prefer cocktails.but wats freee in front of me i cant reject rite?
i mean who can reject free stuff..plus..its chivas
wat i lurve
..
NOthing ..nothing can overtake the syiok of super spicy tomyam or maggie after clubs session..and hot milo.syiok syiok syioookkk!imagine u were blur..tired..and once u have those hot stuff gosh i tell u wat..need not to sleep anymore! no more blurmess kakakakaka and wait..more syiok if u juz vomitted nyahahaha
recently
some ppls praise me blog.some ppl said m lame…
yoh..come on la..broggers also human jeh..noneed so anal wan.
i got low moods and high mood.when m in good mood ofcoz i can brog well.
this is personal brog..i brog bout everything here so don expect alll the time its sane ..it can b damn ridiculous at times ok..HELLO a female blogging = PMS blog ( okok other female bloggers chill..im like tht so need not to blend yrself into my assumption )
if my entries r fuckingly bored..one eyes open one eyes close and wait for a better entry lo..i don get paid for broggin le..
p/s : earl said he can ban me in thai..i said " earl i don mind u ban me there.for real.i wish upon the star next time this kukujiao man go thai someone will fuckingly dip his fag into earl’s hand NAYAHAHAHAHAH..i’l b damn sure u’l ban yrself there xD"
btw i got my hair short ^^ 
si fei poh
tht is wat he alwayz call me it meant DIE FAT LADY..no one is meaner than him..wait my ex called me tht as well but it sounded sweet
back to my bro..somtimes i juz farkingly hates him..but think think..if my life witout him..
i think ill die.for real.i mean ive been alone all the time..its him who’l bug me.i might looked like i don like his bugginesss but in fact if he doesnt bug me for one mili second ill freak out! either he is not my bro anymore or..the worlds gonna end.
well he is nto my ..brother..he’s my cousin.
no ..his parents definatly can afford him juz tht..when he were a baby he live with grandma coz his mom cant take k of him due to loads work..and grandma lives with us..
so..eventually he got used to us =) in fact he looked alot like me..
in foong’s family..onli both of us looked alike!!
i cant imagine my life witout him
-bugging me for pc
-asking for money
-asking him buy somthing and the rest of money he took ==
-dl stuff for him
-pinjam my stuff
-wake u up early in the morning fetch him to school
-listen to him btiching bout how stupid other ppl is..except him *scoff*
-self declared most handsem fella..
-no bulu in ketiak
omg! wat a brother..i start to miss him now better go get him kacau him back
*runs and scream SAIII LOOOOO……….*
seriosuly if i really do tht he’l probably whack me dead.
Oborozukiyo~inori this song..by mika nakashima.tho originally not from her..i do think this is the best song of hers.
j pop mixed with a very mythical music arranging.a must listen =)
not much ppl can sing in c major btw
