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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

last post from 2006 i assume.its 31st now..to think back last two years of this date,is the day i met lai aka my sweetie.since then i had a wonderful life wit him.tht was our 1st year.2nd year started well very well.we had loads of plannings.but the last 6 months i made his life so miserable.m sorry =) i apologise from you ok?

starting of 2006 i was bz with the register full of hope to take my exam for june.been struggling alot.but i do played to much.back then i had full support of lai.he came back to celeb cny with me I BET NEXT CNY ALOT PPL EXPECTING TO C HIM AS WELL.sorry la he’s gone haha.end of april he came back for training.a day b4 my beday we had HUGE ARGUEMENT and i cant remember wat.the next day he still came and c me peck on my face say nothing n went to work.haha i still remember i was so pist at him!he promised he will come home early.i waited till 8 pm and he still havent back.i yelled at him..then onli he said he got lost in mv ( due to construction ) "sweetie m sorry but i hate you coz i juz wanna get u a cake for yr beday.its yr strawberry cake tht i promised ill give u every year " OMFG u dunno how guilty i felt tht time! he reached home around 9 somthing..can u imagine tht..after work he rushed to mv juz to get my cake and he havent even rest bath and eat.kesian whahaha..lai prob tot i 4got but i do rememeber juz tht i don express well.along with my beday i had a beday present = MY HP GOT STOLE! rghh!! i left it in thr toilets.i was crying like mad ahah!tonnes of pics and msg i kept in there!thx the jes and tam tht time.they were running around trying to find suspicious gal and calling my number non stop.so tQ!llove u both.who do i turned to? ofcoz my pie too.cried and even blame its his fault.M SUCH A BITCH whahahahahah!but due to the lost of my 7610 ( sai seng seems to b the happiest i dont know y.may b he’s jealous coz he is still using 8510 - if u guys still know wat model is tht xD ) i ought to use back my 6100 and found back my precious old fren.haha.it was farney and ill remember it forever.i call tht lost some and get some.because of tht i got extra pwesents for beday since i can contact them ^^ around tht time i had another arguement wit lai and i throw his ring away..the ring we wore since we started out relationship.cant find it back till now.godzilla la me!

my parents purposely brought lai and i to a trip b4 he go back to sabah.dad said he should enjoy a lil too.its fully sponsored by them.love my parents.they love wat i love..i bet lai can feel it too rite?tht was july..soon after tht lai went back to sabah till now we havent met each other.it was the 1st time for us not to meet so long and its the last =) if i know penang trip was out last time..i wouldnt have throw tantrum on him.my mom wants to climb a hill and i was angry.wat he do? carry me,console me,push me from behind so i walk easily.m sorry again!bad things..come and go..it seems like never ending to him..so both of us decided to let go at last..

here im worrying.how if i don find a better guy.or atleast like him?i admit i have very scary temper and ppl believe tht no one can stand me except him ( i agree also ahha ) but..no matter wat,it already ended thts nothing i should b afraid of.all the while m worry if we will split now the worst already came y should i b afraid?

i believe its foreshadowing.since the day i lost my 7610 i lost the past.since the day i throw his ring,it already represents an end.i bought him a new ring which is almost alike.but it made his hands itch and rash.he don bother and still use it.coz its from me.but the fact is..no matter how he tried to use..the old already gone..GONE MEANS GONE?even if u try fix it by buying new it’l never help.it’l hurt him.i believe so.and when i use back my 6100..it also signify something is coming on my way..as i said u lost somthing but u get some..

in 2006 also a year tht i can truely c who is my real pals and who r not.still the same chics tht can go thru bad and good times with me.newly found is ging from cavenzi and joanne O stupid pig wahahah.rachel my precious,tina&jason,hana all of u rox =) m still stuck with u gals.forgive me ill try finding new frens wahhah jk la.in 2006 i can c how much my parents love me..forgive everything ive done and the trouble i caused they settle everything..not even scolding me but blame themselves.so daddy mommy..again here i say i love you.here onli coz when i c u call it juz don come out rite =) .in 2006 i also realise my relation with me cousins ( dad side ) is really close.i dont know how much ill miss them when m not around anymore..i wanna celebrate every festivals wit em..

there is alot more for me to worry for 2007,exams esp.i wish to go UK asap.love life? it can b put aside.ill leave it to the hands of god.i know he will bring wonderful person into my life to guide me thru =) i believe i really believe.bygone must be left bygone.but i wish lai and i can still be friends.i believe he and i will respect each other’s life not as lovers.wait..god already brought this wonderful person long ago but i din realise it? may b, but 2007 will let me know if m wrong ait?

ups and downs in 2007 will b left as memories for me.to all of u who s reading this..remember everything happen with its reason.i alwayz tell myself this everytime m in trouble.learn from the lesson and you’l b a better person.ill become a better meiyee.don frown,smile and be proud of the hardship u have gone thru.for me there is something ive done i felt so ashamed of my self.but my parents and lai convince me tht..it should be left bygone.ill live a better life.should we b expecting alot for the coming new year?some say let it goes as how it suppose to go.some expect alot..but someone say..if u dont expect YOU can avoid being disappointed in the end.which are you?M THE 2nd ill expect alot and will try my best to fulfill wat i want.

i wanna love =) again 

WELCOME 2007 and goodbye my 2006

MALAKAP!!! SHUHAM LA LA ROYAKS!

i know la this suppose to b expired d coz i went malakap like dunno long ago.but if i don post rite WASTED LAH THOSE PICS ( tho not alot =P )

i woke up 8 am FRIGGIN 8 AM OK! i slept for one hour onli T T i looked really bad yet in front of parents i ought to act like i had enough sleep coz i  cant possibly let them know

" HEY DI MI! I SLEPT AT 7AM! U PROUD OF ME? " <–cannot rite?

i din take any pics on the way to M.highway nothing to c wan.i also sleeping ma how to take?but once my dad stop to wee wee i cant sleep back d.was listening to my bro ( yes i know m the onli child m not suppose to have a bro.but he is my bro shut up don ask ) toking crap behind there.here is some tht i still remember.my bro’s younger bro also around but this junior bro not my bro.

my bro : mami lipan got many many legs rite?the leg won disappear suddenly rite?<-HE HATED  PINK AS WELL SO I USE PINK FOR HIM wahahahah

mami : yes ( i dunno y mom siao with him )

my bro : so y hor everytime the lipan wanna turn the left or right side one of its leg will disappear?

mami : patah?

my bro : no leh

( they go on and guess i also lazy listen ) and finally

mami : so hard i dont know ah.tell me answer ( BIMBO! )

my bro : ceh..u drive car also need signal la! so when the lipan need to turn left or right it take out one leg for signaling lo

mami": ahaha so funny

me : LAME

my bro : u lifeless onli.

then its my bro’s bro’s turn

m b b: be mu ( in mandarin ) got one crazy man throw a toilet bowl from air plane Y LER?

mami : har? y ar? erm..dunno wo

m b b: haha coz HE IS A CRAZY MAN no why

me : = = " since u guys so like to cock i also give u all guess one ok?if u ought to grow a pimple.where u wan it to grow??

my b : erm..nose

me: yes kah? really? if really grow yr nose i think u go bang yr head on the wall already lo.

m b b : wat is pimple?

me : nice try.not cute at all.go die now

my b : aiyah! tell answer

me : grow on ppl’s face la ofcoz -back listening to mp3-

my b,my b b , mami dadi : = ="

then we reach malakap lo.walk walk at A famosa street ( i dunno where la but there alot of ppl got fountain ) ITS SO friggin hot there untill i no mood to take any pics.having endless ice cream instead.My bro found a cute box and open it,to his horror got lipan wan!ofcoz i stand one side laughing like mad.u guys imagine la his face.so we deicided to get daddy as well.MY DAD wat also scare wan but he is not stupid.we gave him to box he open it like grandma SLOWLY.the lipan slow mo coming out lo.

daddy : CEI~ scare me ah u think i scare ah!

ME & my b : cei…u open so slow ofcoz la

then suddenly out of no where my b b took out a fake snake and hold the tail in front of me dad

my b b: BAK BAK CAN I BUY THIS

i dunno how let u guys imagine my dad’s reaction.ALMOST PEE ON HIS PANTS.my daddy is still a big kid i muz say coz he go back to the lipan box and play with it.i see him so cute i ma say

me : daddy come picture with me  

after tht stupid fake smile he go back to his box. = ="

this playful dad syiok imagine those ppl who’l b this boxie’s victim.we walk with dad to mami.she was at next few stalls.he took the box along,so bro and i knew wat he wanna do.

daddi: mami u c this box wat isit ler.i dunno how to open ler

me and my b + my bb : he is laughin already..mom won possibly open

mom : apani ( SHE OPEN QUICKLY LIKE HEROINE COZ DAD SAID HE CANT OPEN RITE? SHE THINK SHE HEBAT LA KNOW HOW TO OPEN ) *lipan jumps out* WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! * mom throws the box away *

wat else 3 of us plus another aunty of mine laugh like mad la!!my mom laugh as well but can see she’s abit pist wit tht stupid old man.guess wat my dad did after tht?

daddi: yes! im so gonna buy this.ill put it at shop let those notty kids tht walk here and there open this box WHAHAHHA..i can c his face imagining those moments and hatred to those nuisance kids.cant blame my dad tho,his customers usually grown up and when kids come ITS HORRIFYIN they’l play with everything in his saloon.

mami : then i also wan one

me :…u both eviil.nowander m born evil

my bro : u where got evil * i was smiling  to him and felt good * U FAT ONLI MA

me : wtfknnccb

nah let u guys peek at my bro

after tht we walk walk sit sit go round round at the street.very antics the building.old old wan.red red..spooky..mom said wanan go go eat shu ham.tht stall onli open at 7pm! muz believe me if not you’l end up waiting.its behind kui fu ren beauty saloon.cincai ask ppl there they will tell u.malakap not big.easy to find.

 hochak came b4 lo

 their superb delicious ssauce! saw the hole therE? there is the place u throw all the shells of shuham lala and escargots.how convenient!

 varieties of food not much but enough to make u syiok!don believe?

 c my mommy and daddy.AND THE GUY BESIDE MY DAD.really hot!! tho abit lala..but DAMN HOT LO!!!!

 bb r u full?? CAN C LO how bout daddy? 

all full la? meiyee u happy anot?

GOT LENGCAI C GOT MY FAV ESCARGOTS OFCOZ I HAPPY LA!!!!

  shu ham la la escargots rox ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

as i said alot have been going on nowdays.1st of all i wanna thanks my buddy who spent the cursed x mas eve and x mas with me.i appreciate the most.to tina and jason,thx for everything u guys did for me.u never know how greatful i felt.cheers =) , joanne thx for curing my boredom,hana thx for alwayz telling me tht u care.my saviour,LAM!( who owes me pwesent =PPp) THX FOR BEING HERE FOR ME AS ALWAYZ.

i think everyone knows my fairy tales has ended.DOn console me coz m feeling good =) .all i want is to be happy.since ending it we’l both be happy y not?i know i usually DONT blog bout my relationships but ppl who reads bout my blog should understand my STORY.congratulations to my ex who found his new gal.AND u guys should felt how pathetic it is haha 2 months ago we still sending testi saying tht we cares and now we’r done.m not gonna delete anything from him in fs.coz he is the 1st guy i ever love my 1st bf.others r juz flings.LAI is a guy who give 200% of his love to me.ppl usually c him as a jerk but no he is not =).he will never allow me to the kitchen helping him cook ( YES HE IS SUPERB IN COOKING ) thts not it,he’l prepare the bed,comics and cold drinks for me in his room so i’l read comic and he’l cook out there.then he’l come back with my favourite dishes and fed me eat.WAT DO I DO? lsit there do nothing =) THIS KINDA BF where to find?in my house i do nothing as well.once i reach home,he’l open op my laptop for me to play.automatically,he’l gom upstairs bring my fav pillow for my to hug.everynight he’l wait untill m asleep onli he left.and every morning before i wake up he’s already by my side.every morning b4 he goes to work,he will sure kiss me goodbye and after work he will go no where except coming to c me.he will sing our favourite song and do strip dances everytime after he bath.HE KNOWS HOW TO DANCE NAUGHTY GAL don play play.his favourite nickname for me is fatty bum bum..pinch my fats and bite them..my cheeks esp.

i easily go dizzy in the car coz i hav problems with low sugar in my body.i remember the trip to penang when we’r on the way home..he fanned me and touched my hair from the second i fell alseep till i woke up.i remember we argued coz i insist to eat pizza and ignore his request.i went home.but the next day i woke up..pizzas in front of my and he said SORRY.we ride bike in the rain and still laugh.

he still said sorry.i alwayz want wat i want and ignore how he feels yet he still ended up 2 years with me.u never know how proud i am.i am here to say..he is not a jerk  u guys used to know.mebbe he is turning into a jerk again now AHHAHAH.i wish him all the best in his new relationship.

thts the way u want yr life to be.find a chic and forget bout me.NTO ME =) i live happily eventho i need to go thru alot of things alone.all u remember is wat i did wrong and nothing is right in our relationship,me? i remember onli the good.so i need not to go old but hating u.the longest relationship i had b4 u is 3 months.with u we have 24 months.yr the onli guy who can makes me felt new everyday.thx to you.i really appreciate the days we’ve gone thru together.i hope as u claim,yr life will b way better witout me.looks like i decided to let u off is a good decision.ALL THE BEST sweetie =)

ps: did i said he is my 1st guys i consider as bF? yeap.hey..there is a guy i had a crush on for 6 years~ =P no one knows? NOW U KNOW! lets guess who he is yah WHAHAHAHAH.. and i wonder if he knows bout tht = ="

but lai i still love u best.don worry WHAHAHAHAHA

bye and dont hate me yah =P

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since its x mas everything should  be in RED~

laggin in blog nowdays coz m too lazy,last but not least m a typo.WAT? wat ive been doing??very big project.m currently one of the contributer for the unemployment scales ( this scales rite? or isit the fish wan? zzz ).c i told u its a big project.

alot alot of ups and down nowdays which really can kills me if it goes on.m glad it’l b over very very soon.after x mas there is new year..HEY! anyone any plan for new year? tag me tag me!no  i dowan stay at home sleep and no thanks plz don ask me go club ^^ BIG NONO TO GO BUKIT BINTANG.

i went mid valley.l don sounds happy?YES M NOT!jam for almost 40mins at the garden’s construction site ok!stupid uncles and stupid lala tht think they very smart 1st lane cut thru 3rd lane tht caused massive traffic JAM.stupid JIAN ( my cousin brother ) said

jian : come smile one!

me : smile yr bird…don kacau..

jian : one two THREE!

  so he got me.

and look wat we saw

OMFG! how can tht kid possibly sleep there?!mayb this is wat happened

mom: don kacau mami! go upstairs!!

kid :upstairs where?

mom: there!!!!

so he ended up merajuk here lame i know but there is nothing tht both of us can do in the car so we craped.DON LIKE AH! DON READ LA DIU ( thx wingziator =P )

then we finally get into mid valley.i swear i won go mv even during weekdays when its holiday.mid valley looks like connaught except mv got air cond..i cant feel it anyway!to those who dont know,connaught is blablabla long long pasar malam nothing to buy wasting time place but good place to kap jai for lala muis and zais i might got killed after this statement!coz alot tai lous hang out tht..

but tai lous don read blogs rite? mebbe XD

then we walk walk walk  c c c and brush thru sweating hands and armpit smells..i went into this shop to buy new heels.Again omfg…stinks and whatever heels i choose is either

missy : no size,sorry no size,no this colour wo,oh this one no more,wat colour also can?no more wo..

me : -"-

luckily at the end i found this ..tho its not my choice of colour and trust me 1ST heels in such colour..ppl who knew me well will laugh to death now don ask y.

we went walk walk again and i found one VERY VERY CHUN KEY CHAIN!its in a boy boy shape with his kukujiao got lights wan!it’l flash when there is incoming call or msg! at nyt it glow in the dark sumore!( but soli ah no pic i din take its pic =( )

me : jian!!! u c this one so cun!!

jian : its been in the market for ages la..in mi si ( some kinda book tht allows u order stuff thru it ) it onli cost 3 bucks.yalo u JAKUN dunno this kinda cheap things wan..wat u know? guess ar? or mng? *but my cousin speaks in mandarin wan hor coz he lala chai* MUAHAHAHHA!

me : - - kanninia u don so mean hor.

so we both hungary d..went to kim gary lo.THERE IS one waiter in kim gary tht i fucking hate lo.if can complain i will definatly get him sack rite away.he don smile and he treats u like banduan more than customer.he is skinny short ugly big eyes and lala hair altho its black which makes him worse not guai not la.fucking sei nabet!GO DIE DON WORK!then i think he sense tht i hate him very much so another nice CUTER GUY serve us.this one wayyyy better lo.NABET U GO DIE OK GO DIE.i ordered unagi blabla seafood stone rice.

jian : i wan beef cheesie rice

me : wei popo don let we all eat beef de wo

jian : u ki siao,she not here and my dad also eat beef la.u sot follow popo onli ma

me : i love kuan yin niang nianng lo! i follow her teaching.i hope u stomach pain later.buddhist not suppose to have beef also.

jian : - -" other stuff din c u so guai

me : …

while we were waiting for our food ofcoz alot of things to crap about.then we saw the couple out there they were kissing and ask their fren take their pics.well its pretty common here so i don give a damn.then suddenly

jian : IYERH!!!!

me : wat wat?

jian : tht gal chat lan wat dat

me : = =" ppl dunno u wan wor wan like tht say ppl mer?

jian : u c!

actually..she not ugly..but very…erm unique..no chin wan..CAN U IMAGINE THT! ( no pic also i don wana get sued )

jian : come we take picture like tht also

me : = ="" dowan its incest

jian : one two three

we laugh till beh tahan so the pic turned out lidat.

then got one stupid waiter i remember wear spect wan,he kepoh watch us laugh and cam whore,so i saw wat is ahead and wanted to warn him but i dunno y my hands bz taking out phone to get the exicting pictures and my mouth bz asking jian to watch =P so his drinks? ENDED UP ON PPL’S HEAD whahahahahahah!!!!!! tai sei ah!GOT JELLO SUMMORE whahah.but my stupid 6111 chi dun..din capture the pic T_T but nvm i got ngan fuk =P so nice!~m so evil i know

here is more pictures~i know u not interested to c but let me show la ok?

i know this one ugly but i very good wan let u all enjoy laughin

. with kuku jian.

^^

jian drugging haha!

nose digging

nice mer? i also wanna try XD

yeay!both very happy.time to leave also.alot ppl waiting d..we sat inside there for almost 2 hours WHAHAHAH

one more last pic let u all laugh HWAHHA

jian don hate me k? u started this =PPPPP

its nice to have siblings to hang out with u sometimes..appreciate it if u have one yah.. =)

MERRY MERRY X MAS! 5 MORE DAYS

remember oh don miss out pwesents

4got to say all these pics took by N80 whahha jeles lerh~

have u ever felt so lonely tht u wanna drink beer and juz sleep rite away?

signs u r lonely

• call up everyone in yr hp list to ask if they r free so u can ask them out to waste some time with u
• do activities alone ( ie swimming ) coz u cant find anyone else and u stil wanna do it coz u cant stand another min doing nothing but thinking of shatz
• thinking of yr ex
• u cant sleep at nyt,listening tonnes of songs and almost cried listening to right here waiting ( exaggerated obviously )

and yes i am very lonely indeed.NOW don freaking ask me bout my relationship coz it won appear here.i still cant talk bout it even think bout it.YES thank you don say u know how i feel ok?

its pathetic m blogging when its 4.35am i wonder wat other ppl is doing?sleeping?hanging on the phone wit their lovers?FUCK UP to those who said they r not afraid of loneliness.one fren of mine said ‘I DON NEED LOVE,FOR NOW I M HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE,NOT AFRAID OF LONELINESS" <– you know who u r and plz fucking eat back yr words coz u fucking disturb me everynyt.

do u wanna taste the feelings of loneliness?can u imagine tht u spend 4-5 hours studying ( fruitless coz u r not even processing wat you’ve read ) then 1-2 hours practising music instruments,bring out all the boring,interesting movies anime and EVERYTHIng juz to waste time WORST IS u even watch tamil news,and yet the time passes so slow tht u wish u die rite away?have u ever felt like u wanna call someone then u realise u don dare to burden ppl and ended up no one to call?alas everything kept in within yrself.its heavy i tell u and m suffering

today i went swimming and YEAH my nose bleed.CCB i wonder y..hope i was cancered and ill die within a week.my life had been miserable these days.FUCK ME.and sorry to my buddies i din tell u wat happened coz as i said i dont wanna b a burden.ALONE SUCKS…but  in the same time..i felt..abit grown up coz m doing things alone..not relying on others ( sorry i came up wit stupid theories ) DANG IL GET ANOTHER CAN OF BEER TO STRIKE MYSELF ASLEEP

ciaoz

miss miserable