yo..from now on ill b updating my blog at
www.beechybelle.com
still updates will b really..lagging as im still very busy.tll end of july.it is still very undone..quite messy lol.well thts onli till end of july!
btw..more personal entry will b posted in frenster instead of beechy coz erm..fs makes me felt closer to myself i guess =)
cheers! muacks c u there!
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it is nothing but big deal.atleast for me
its monster tht could destroy whatever joy im having behind me
as it slowly crept into me..making me doubt am i right or am i wrong..it makes me shivers in agonies,silently replace the memories i had with anger and worries.Eventually allows me to ignore the bliss i had in present,wats rite in front of my naked eye.where i almost go despair..
instinct never fails to come in time..to wake me up from such nightmares.the saint word TRUST suddenly erupt from inside,holding my present memories,pleading myself to reconsider the wrong conclusion..demanding to erase the monster tht had crept inside me.. yes..thks to instinct..im no more a prey for …
FEAR
By names it represent who we are.I strongly believe so.
meiyee is wat my close frens address me
belinda is where my coll mates or studio ppl call me
belle is wat lazy ppl use upon me = ="
so..if i bump into coll mate or ppl introduce me as meiyee.i wouldnt mine,tht is my name.my root.
so how would u feel if someone u bump into,u call his/her’s real name ie meiyee and he/she obviously DISLIKE WAT U ADDRESS EM
does their real name makes them a low class human being? y do u need to DISLIKE yr name in the 1st place?do u still remember who u are? by using a name u give to yrself doesnt mean u r A different person..u r still however who u are.
When i found out there is such ppl..suddenly within myself felt sad whcih i dont even know why…
honestly i used to felt disgrace i came from kajang and i tell ppl im from kl.but tht was long ago..
now its name.the Given indentity once u were born and u felt disgraced?
do u still remembers who u are?
this is just an opinion..for me atleast..my name represents me,potraying who i am.if i were to hate my own name and preferbly become someone else..i bet..there will be no one wish to know the YOU u created..i believe..ppl prefer to know the real you rather thn the person u masked behind The fake identity u gave yrself..
LOVE YOURSELF love yr name..B4 expecting ppl to respect or love you..
tis like applying make up.yes nicely u apply it on u..its perfect,thts the cake ( the fake u )..but once the rain comes? make up off? ( the orginal u )
no matter how hard u cover..the consequences’ b the same as..u cant b someone else forever..there will b a time u will take off yr mask..and im sure..SOMEBODY will see it ( yr flaws tht u tried to hide upon.using yr fake personalities or ..A NAME )
Be yrself is wat u ought to do..if u don appreciate yrself who will do?
kawan..i wont say i know u much.i havent seen u in person
i knew u from hitz.fm chat room
since spidey 2.
you’ve
-burnt me countless soundtracks which i can easily download by myself
i rely on u quite alot coz u allow me to do so
u search for somthing im looking for
u tolerate my nonsence
ie wanting to upload songs to fs but lazy
u will ask me wat song i wan and u uploaded for me.alot of stuff effortlessly i get it from u
u sent me new year,x mas cards and even beday present last year
this year?
u gave me a very special present
midget : u ever think of wanting xxx ( i wouldnt tell wat it is untill its time ) ?
me : wan wan! wan!! name it beechybelle
midget : its not a good name = =""
me: don k! beechybelle nice ma!
midget : ok
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i receive an offline msg "happy birthday beechybelle" and i got the xxx
ofcoz its new and i need to do alot stuff with it.i ask my fren to help me he said eh dont u need to pay for yr xxx? i never tot of it untill my fren ask me
me : eh the xxx need money wan ma? and the username can create another one mou?
midget : noneed pay and noneed change wan la username
me : where can! takkan i use another name for my xxx wan ma! ( din realiase how ungrateful ive been.so sorry )
midget : ok u tell me yr desire username and i change u for u coz i already paid
me :PAID WAT?!!!! tell me le!!
midget : drop from sky meh…take it as yr birthday presz la.
i seriously dont know how to reply anymore..i dont even know wat to say
***i obviously tot i dropped from sky..forgive me for being so naive***
thanks..really i felt very kam tung!
hugsz….it meant alot to me..ill take k of xxx and i will love it to max
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THANK YOU
and im damn lucky to have a fren like u…
either the god love me too much or..u’ve been unlucky to owe me in the past’s life..
1st i wanna say thanks to everyone tht wished me h B day.really happy coz u guys remember and care ^^
thks to loveable someone who took a day off to celeb my burhday with me =)
love u to max and i really love yr effort..
( since u love to work so much i never expect u will take a day off )
yes simple things can make me really happy.esp from u
so wat do we do? spidey 3
OMG IT SUCKS…i was like watching typical love movie..can die rite there..i rather watchi the hunk beside me which is alot more exciting.can u believe how bored i am?cant wait for the movie to end.IM BLOODY SERIOUS
rating? - 0
but its still alrite..coz who is with me tht matters xD
after movie,went for shopping~spend alot again *sigh*
thn went home..cuddle up
"dear..happy birthday" aawwwww damn sweet i thought ^^
well parents date me to the ship.and ask my fren along.wokeiiii i tot..its so fishy but its alrite.they r not gonna slaughter him alive i think
dad and mom adn congratulations to them.their resume to go US was approved.bravo and there goes my 10 days freee witout them *dancing*
we had one dozen of natural oyster and escargots..but b4 i could take the pic..it was swapPED so..too bad no pics.anyway this is LAMB whatever name it is i call it lamb chop.its damn good!no funny smell.
bro and grandma’s seafood au gratin
my seafood platter
his seafood cocktail
my grandma! i drag her along 
all full and ah..my parents looked really tired coz they work hard for the interview to go US lol! memorising how to speak in english.its damn hillarious..
funny thing is..they don get to show off wat the memorize.coz there got translator.
= = "
bro me and sam.
yes we looked one kind.coz mom who took our picture makes u smile for damn long b4 she manage to click…i asked "mi..can u snap already" and 3 of us burst out laughin
seriously i looked damn awful in these pics! i don even dare to upload more in case i make ppl throw up.
im glad we all get along together well!
there goes my teeny! yes happy u ss! well..again i wish everyone around me merry happy jolly and pray for WORLD peace
happy birthday to me
i was invited by JANE to watch fashion show by sisley and united colours of benetton
yes i am at front row weee~
and ill blog more bout it in a day or two.lol! bz now ciaoz!!!!
happy beday to me in advance
wishing me pretty and vain forever !!!!!
