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the Brave
you are alwayz there to protect whatever u ought to.stand up for family stand up for frens,stand up for life and stand up for love
regardless yr own benefits and strive for others.
protect those who are weak
be the 1st to light up the unknown darkness.
but remember u are special but u r still a human.somtimes step down and let someone else protect you
becoz u deserve to b weak at times.the brave i salute you

the Mom
u r there to be the one to kiss the pain for everyone around you.u never say no to favour.u r as if a second mom to console to nag.u may not say a word but yr touch usually says it all.yr tender as if u r born to take away ones pain tho somtimes u may not say wat u meant but yr eyes cant lie.just like everyone out there.
to ppl who found a fren like MOM..appreciate them..becoz they usually drift away when they know u r strong enough to meant.
the mom..u are special but remember give ppl a chance to treat u as well love u as one.need not to run away when u know we grew up.becoz witout you,our pain might still lingers =)

the forgetful/clumsy/cute/kind
u the silly bug.many says if only yr not were not stick to yr face u might lose it.
the forgetful often makes u laugh.when u see em..u felt like protecting them.so some its annoying dealing with ppl like this.but they knew their weakness and walks stronger than u might reckon.yes bcoz they know their weakness they strive harder than others.correting and improving themselves.i salute and i adore you.
the cute you light up ppl as they sees you but never let someone underestimate you
the kind..yes u never know how to say no BUT learn to say no to ppl which comes with malice and does no good.learn TO SAY NO..b4 ubecome the prey for predator
oh the clumsy,each time u fall u never cry u never embarrass but brings out laughter to everyone around you.clumsiness u realise is just wat u are and u accept it so well tht ppl sometimes wanna act like you =) dont u know tht?

the Bookworm
now funny is the bookworn nowdays is never like those who could imagine.a bookworm,wat they know about reality might shocked u 100 streets away.i knew atleast 2 bookworms tht teach me alot of things tht i yet not know,from them i knew they were so strong and fun to hang out with.they love calling themselves the NERD coz they know they r not.the play harder than u,they study less than u do..wat they read is just like a habit.a book is their best fren to be with..as they alwayz tell magnificent stories tht ppl in reality never do.the bookworm like julie and natalie muse me to max and m lookin foward to see u guys again =)

the Selfish
i call them ppl who love themselves more than anyone else.i am one of them.i love myself and i give myself the best.regardless wat ppl think..i know myself the best ( also ma guardian angel ) i know wats best for me and plz dont tell the selfish wat to do becoz they knew and they alwayz do.
lecture them = 0 becoz the selfish have their own mindset tht u can never predict.
but..once the selfish were in love..they practice selfishness by desire to OWN their love one,by shower their love one with wat they think is the best..they r selfish to love their love one as mush as they could till their partner will however cant survive witout em in the long run
to the selfish..i agree with szelin tht..being selfish is not a sin.how could u love others if u dont love yrself in the 1st place.
sometimes..when u r in love with the selfish..u might b the happiest person in the world..coz they muse u..in a way tht commoner ever could.

these r the bunch of ppl i met and the inspire my life..some of u knows who u r..some of u just dont.but i thank you.for crossing over my life and let me know there r so many types of ppl tht is so special and worth to b praise

here is my declaration of love to mcD!!

well most of the time when i wake up im either too lazy to drive out or..there is no more maggie in my kitchen so ill think of mcD.

just dial 1300 13 1300 tell them yr name and address ( if calling 1st time ) and the next time u call them they will know who r u and know wwhere u stay no fuss at all! i know other delivery also have the same system but i tell u wat..nothing like pizza HUT!

i fucking hate pizza.
i live in sg chua and called for delivery guess wat they said? SORRY WE DO NOT DELIVER TO THT AREA wtf juz 2 days ago i saw the shop beside my place receiving delivery.nvm,wats worse now i live in kajang utama its juz like max 10 mins from town and i ask for delivery..they said WE DONT DELIVER TO THT AREA.u know wat pizza? JUST WAIT FOR CHAP LAP! FUCK U!sue me but yes fuck u!

back to mcD..the longest i ought to wait for mcD also max 20 mins.which is like if i goto mcD myself ill took whiole 20mins back and fort,ques and order aside.so mcD cool anot?the food still warm and the fries still crunchy!
now wat rox is..THEY NOW DELIVER MCD TILL 3AM! wah i love it!now m not gonna worry if m hungry halfway studyin! mcD i love u nyahahaha..

i prefer eating at home dont care wat it is.coz i can eat with whatever post i like..legs on the table or wahtever..so thx to delivery service like mcD.kakaka..again pizza hut..go die

my bro cracked me up with this incident in the car while i was fucking sleepy

yi : jie
me : hwat…hwat u want
yi : yer u speak so weird..i tell u somthing i stomach pain
me : wats up? u stomach pain and im sleepy is total irrelevant
yi :….i pain u no feel wan meh
me : *touch me stomach and heart* then geleng kepala
yi :..chi si ( go die )
me : nyahaha ok la.. tell tell y stomach pain
yi : yr popo lo!
me : waT?
yi : i saw her took out the da tou chai ( big head vege i dunno wat the fuck we call it in english..but its preserve vege )..and tht stupid this i saw already one kind..with loads of white patches.i think its infected ( funny terms i know.thanks to my bro )
me : and thern? u tell her or waT?
yi: i frigging did! then she said "its jus the salt they use to preserve the vege"
me : well she insist..then u ma don eat later lo
yi : but who can resist pork + da tou chai?
me : true..so?
yi : later dinner time i told her it tasted weird..
me : ew…then?
yi : po said "no la..its not rotten ok..its just the salt.u don kept on thinking its infected" i ma follow wat she said and continue eating..then when i was very syiok almost finish everything she said " those tht rotten i carefully took them out adi.. so its all fine..its not rotten" = =
me : LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omfg either my grandma is really smart to trick my bro fin tht thing or she really believes its still ok to b eaten ( the vege )
fucks im still laughing typing this out…lollolllol
long lives grandma

loads of tacky yacky ( i dunno where this word comes from ) stuff made me cranky

-shit loads of shits to cramp into my head .exam coming soon zz..yet i havent know  how many papers in the course.i admit this is my own fault.
-no morning call.very cranky indeed.as if no one cares bout me.yeah im a mar farn princess wat now?
-aunties tht convince "lawyers will ended up in sales.its not like wat u see in the movie" well my mom is there if not ill juz farkin fuck u upside down! if yr stupid doter or son cant make it DONT CURSE ME NOT MAKING IT OK? coz ill b a lawyer in 4 years time come back and sue u for damages in a sense u made to my emotion!
-aunties tht tell u how pretty u are and u should get married soon.wtf! u think yr generation meh.mother fucking look at yrself by the age of 35 u looked like 60 adi coz u married early and bare like dozens of kids.serve u rite
-aunties tht saw u walking on the street with someone and happily simply tell ma family i got new bf.WTf.. gosh..i dunno how many bf i have then.
-family.somtimes i mean onli somtimes i wish i dont have them.with them i as if have no life.watch my behaviour this and tht.even dating a guy would b a problem coz next day it might b a topic in the pasar.and grandma will come back asking this and tht…let me die..juz let me die.
-future.i know nothing bout it.i just know if i fail my exam now im ruined!no more future.yes those aunties will happily see me get married and watch me become them!even if i do..my daughter or son will n smarter and definatly looks better than theirs! ( …. )
-weird ass in friendster.in case u r reading YES im talking bout u.wtf I LIKE LA WAT TO DROP ON PPL’S FRENSTER! he is not yr lou kong also! so wat if i said he looks cute or i fucking said i wanna b his gF? hello he is not married and plz.. look at yr face b4 u come to my frenster and view me then realise u r so not on PAR to say a thing.if u want go ahead drop a comment like " I WANNA B YR WIFE " see how he will react.FUCK U.if m mean iill fucking drop i love u everyday in his profile so then gals like u will view my profil 100 times a day.making me the paling famous person in fs.ZZZZ
-( muse by tai ka jie  ) PPL WHO THINK ppl like us who cant write in chinese A LOSER.wtf..
even if i cant write in them i spoke well plus u guys the real loser.try going to england and speak in mandarin lo.u so great and chinese big deal ma rite? fuck it..
come on..language its somthing u use to communicate ok.so wat if u surpasses  commoner’s level of mandarin or canto.at the end of the day u spoke so well yet no one understand U LIVE IN YR FUCKING OWN WORLD ok? its not fun when u tok kok like hell and ppl dont understand.

enough for today’s crankiness.not a good post i would say but this is wat bothering me rite now..

NEVER
-add me into yr fs while u dont know fucks about me except my name and my boobs r huges
-COME TO ME AND ASK to b my bf while u onli to me for may b 5 mins.insane ar?!!!
-say hi and disappear dunno go where everytime u online.coz it really annoys me
-provokes,bitch,annoyes me..TENKIU AH one brother and mother is enough.i need no more.and plz NO GRANNIES ( if u dont know wat i meant u can fucking fuck yrself rite now )

no im not in bad mood.as i said ITS RANDOM SHITz!

total irrelavent topic
i know la my comment is alwayz lonely there but i don mind lo..
i don blogs for comment!! at 1st i do tot no one reads my crap..but NO!
actually quite alot ppl msg me in my fs and msnger telling me they have problem commentin in my blog..
WELL TENKIU SO MUCH!!! now i know ppl does appreciate my crap!!
and..fs suck as usual so..i dont mind if u don leave a comment..
ill write ( type ) better to show  u guys my gratitude!!! thanks for reading! i love u all!!!muuuuahhhhh…

y am i writing this? HOW I KNOW?!! ITS RANDOM SHITZ!!!

current addiction :: hey hey you you i want to be yr gf!~

y am i telling this? its random shitz thts y

lalalalaaalalalala

since everyone is blogging bout it i also want

here
but i lazy upload pic. juz click to link xD
ling ling~

i actually found out from ling ling 1st…but no big deal lo..tho in papers i can hardly c my own fucking face NYAHAHAHAHAH

*oi choi playing as background music by janice*
wat m crapping here doesnt reflect my life.. juz some hmm..pondering goin on

be as one to leave at last..
how does it start?
at 1st.. there is something in our life.so we went searching for another half of us.
thus ..ended up as one

WAT really makes ppl stay together is because of the feelings and support one could share.however..i do feel tht..ppl be together to be stronger.since somthing is missing so we stay together..simply means.. weak.
as the relationship goes on tho we found tht somthing is wrong in the relationship we tend to hold on tight..some say its because of love.i agree but partly.
mainly? its becoz we r weak and do not dare to walk our path alone yet not.as time goes by..we learn to be stronger in each other’s arms and one day let go when we r stronger.need no more baby talk no more attention = break up

be as one to leave at last? agree anot?

those who will not leave other no matter how strong they’ve become..i envied them.those are love..and needed each other for eternal solely for love.
i see tht onli at my grandparent’s generation..
nowdays? divorce more than marriage..whcih makes me think..marriage nowdays is juz a piece of paper.

wat makes ppl afraid of divorce onli one thing ALIMONY

travel alone no big deal rite??

may b its juz me. i prefer travel alone.coz i belive when u r alone..wat us see and seen is very diffrerent.well its simply becoz

go with yr family = THEY WILL PREFER STAY IN THE HOTEL 247
go with yr frens = without fail most of them time ( with tau keis i went with ) sure got conflict zzz ended up 2 group or more splitted.
bf ? = ok this might b better ofcoz got problem as well m sooo lazy to elaborate it.

so i prefer alone..tho it seems quite impossble but i can tell u.. its damn fun!
most of the time when i go travel with my parents ill drift away from them.now tht my brother is alwayz with me we both drift away from them nyahahah.

if i ought to choose some ppl with me it’l b my bro no doubt and cousins like jian and chel.
after my exam i would like to explore more places.. wish tht could b done b4 my major starts ..sigh

i dont know if it’l still be funny when converted to words.well if its not funny.proves tht the way i express with words SUCKS!lets c how i suck ( verbally ok? )

so my 1st year of coll my dad havent get  me a car.so i ought to take ktm then lrt then bus.it was really fun tho fuckingly tiring.
thz for esther ma best mate back then! we usually travel together and the journey home is alwayz fun with her

so one time on the way back around 6-7 pm which i HATE the most coz its pack! everyone is going home..
the station tht usually makes me faint? klcentral and bandar tasik selatan.
so we reach bandar tasik selatan and i was sittin beside the door with esther ( kanasai i duno wat we call tht )
once the door opened,ppl rush is ofcoz to get a nice seat,i spotted a super tall guy which his head taller than the door but he obviously too busy to bother bout his height.wat he did? he is observing if there is any space B4 he even step into the train,resulting? he bang his head straight at the door!!!
i think onli a few saw coz he walked in like hero as if nothing happened.after he walked to the other side of the door i laughed my ass out but in low profile way in case he saw me laugh at him.
esther kept asking me wat happened but i just cant stop laughing as if the scene kept on replay in my mind.i laugh for whole 10 mins i think coz i onli get to tell wat happened to esther when we reach serdang station.ppl rush out from the train while i was telling wat happened
me : he fucking stupid lO!!! so tall went to bang the door!
esther: no one saw?!! y din tell me! i wanna c
me : i tell u wat if i did not look at the door once the door open i wont c tht happen!he walked in so selamba as if nothing happened!
esther : wah so keng..not pain wan meh?
me : ask him la! i won b so stupid go bang the door.sometimes being short is not a bad thing.
esther: where he is??
me : tht so hai ar? wait
while i was trying to tell esther where he is,he is no more there.then i when im about to turn to esther wanted to tell her he is gone
HE IS FUCKINGLY RITE OPPPSITE SEAT OF MINE!!!!!!! once i saw him i cant tahan and laugh hysterically!
esther asked me wat and without second thought i pointed at him.ppl around tht heard me talking bout the door banging hero turned to him and start laughing with me.
its was embarrasing for me,even for him coz he is rite opposite of me listening to wat i said about him! he ended up laughing as well.
esther? SHE LAUGH LOUDER THAN I DO.
once we reach kajang station we walked fast witout turning back in case he will come chasing wanting to kill us

"i cant explain this feelings,i think about it everyday,and eventhough we’v moved on,its just so hard to walk away.."

sometimes its not tht u still love each other but its so weird when u come to yr ex.so muc you’v been thru and now it doesnt meant anything anymore..even worse being fren is now impossible!
yeah u know yr ex got a new chic or somthing..but u just wont feel jealous but felt happy for him.
may b.. u know, u r no more the best for him.rather than holding grudge u wish him the best.
thts me.
its so weird tht someone who talks with u everysingle day and msged more than 100 msg a day now NONE of it anymore.
and when we see each other again? ..we cant even look into each other’s eyes.WITH all the might avoiding seeing each other.
again..see each other but..din talk at all.awkwardness.
how i wish we were still frens.coz i know if we were..we’r the bestest fren EVER